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Confirmed hair line fracture in my left hand's index finger.
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I've just witnessed the greatest game of tennis in my entire life featuring World Number 1 Rafael Nadal and the unseeded German, Tomy Haas.. Man, Nadal was brilliant.. Have you ever seen someone has 43 winners and only 7 unforced errors! Goodness, gracious me. I'm absolutely bewildered..
No one can make me smile wider than YOU.
No one can make me happier other than YOU.
After all the girls i've met, it just occurred to me that they are not worth it, not that they disappoint me and so on, no, but you see, only you can make me smile.
Ermm.. hmmmm...
No one can make me happier other than YOU.
After all the girls i've met, it just occurred to me that they are not worth it, not that they disappoint me and so on, no, but you see, only you can make me smile.
Ermm.. hmmmm...
I wish that you will listen to me more and open up to me more, that will be great.
Your wish that you want me to do something since the beginning of our time together, believe me I'm working on it. There are some expected problems but rest assured, I'm working on it.
Your wish that you want me to do something since the beginning of our time together, believe me I'm working on it. There are some expected problems but rest assured, I'm working on it.
I just watched What happens in Vegas starring Ashton Kurcher and Cameron Diaz and surprisingly, I enjoyed the movie greatly. The absolute hatred they have for each other, the traps and loopholes they set for each other, hoping that the intended target will fall into the death trap so they can have their hands on a 3 million dollar cheque.
Hilarious. Heart breaking too. They absolutely cant stand each other's faces but in the end, they confessed that they could not live without each other. How sweet. Fairytales can only happen in movies but how magnificent it will be if it can happen in life.
Everything reminds me of you, even saying the name 'Cameron Diaz' reminds me of you as she was one of your favourite actress.
I felt happy at first, now I'm suffering in silence but you seem to relish the opportunity and had done so much better than I expected.
Hilarious. Heart breaking too. They absolutely cant stand each other's faces but in the end, they confessed that they could not live without each other. How sweet. Fairytales can only happen in movies but how magnificent it will be if it can happen in life.
Everything reminds me of you, even saying the name 'Cameron Diaz' reminds me of you as she was one of your favourite actress.
I felt happy at first, now I'm suffering in silence but you seem to relish the opportunity and had done so much better than I expected.
- Music:Street Spirit - Radiohead
How does it feel to survive a day not contacting someone you love?
To the majority, it may feel sucky.
To the someone, it may elicit a response that goes something like this, " Erm why should i fret about this when I have something else to care about"
Cool, yeah so cool.
The pain, the anxiety emerge after so long being in the dark.
You decide what's wrong and what's not.
To the majority, it may feel sucky.
To the someone, it may elicit a response that goes something like this, " Erm why should i fret about this when I have something else to care about"
Cool, yeah so cool.
The pain, the anxiety emerge after so long being in the dark.
You decide what's wrong and what's not.
8 hours ago, something peculiar yet meaningful happened right out of the blue, my dad asked, yes he asked whether he could talk to me. Immediately, I felt a rush of regret of avoiding him, avoiding the one who cared for me, who is not necessarily 'afraid' of me. Still, a dad asked his son whether he could talk to me tells me how nonchalant I had been and now, my tears can testify to how regretful to cause the many loopholes.
Then he talked to me about relationship, yeah boyfriend girlfriend thing. He said I allow you to love someone but I wish for you to befriend that person first. He added that he sensed the sudden drop in my attitude is due to the quality of relationship I'm in.
For the first time in my almost 19 years of wasteful life, I considered him as my dad. I do not know the reference of 'dad' till today and goodness, I'm not kidding.
And you are my new found companion, little DAD.
Then he talked to me about relationship, yeah boyfriend girlfriend thing. He said I allow you to love someone but I wish for you to befriend that person first. He added that he sensed the sudden drop in my attitude is due to the quality of relationship I'm in.
For the first time in my almost 19 years of wasteful life, I considered him as my dad. I do not know the reference of 'dad' till today and goodness, I'm not kidding.
And you are my new found companion, little DAD.
Sometimes, I want to be all by myself. Alone. Feeling decapitated inside and so on. I feel as if I'm not spending enough quality time with myself. I don't know what that exactly means but yeah, I understand that I can't underestimate myself or criticize myself just like some idiots do.
Sometimes, I just wish that I can explain them from the very start to the absolute end what's going through my mind when they rattle of their insults to their heart's content. Silence. It's a god - damned virtue, hell yeah.
Sometimes, I feel that I know something that you don't and you should be lucky enough that I'm willing to share. If i don't then it simply means that I don't care whatever shit that happens to you.
and just sometimes, I longed for those memories that had encapsulated my heart with no - holds - barred joy and endless euphoria that till today, I still crave for it badly thanks to the overdose addiction that I had before.
Sometimes, I just wish that I can explain them from the very start to the absolute end what's going through my mind when they rattle of their insults to their heart's content. Silence. It's a god - damned virtue, hell yeah.
Sometimes, I feel that I know something that you don't and you should be lucky enough that I'm willing to share. If i don't then it simply means that I don't care whatever shit that happens to you.
and just sometimes, I longed for those memories that had encapsulated my heart with no - holds - barred joy and endless euphoria that till today, I still crave for it badly thanks to the overdose addiction that I had before.
- Music:Always love - Nada Surf
You know something dear, I admit I tried to get over you and so on. Even tho' I sense little happiness but the aura of happiness when you're with me, spending time together and forget the world as a whole is just mind - blowing.
The bottom line is I can't get over you. Sadiq told me that time will heal me, yes it does heal but for certain circumstances only. It cant overpower the force of love that excites my heart each time i talk to you.
I tried, it's hard.
If you are reading this, please do note that everything I said literally, is what Ive been feeling these few days.
I don't know what you've got that other girls lack, but certainly it's what that is preventing me to fall head over heels for them but instead for you.
The bottom line is I can't get over you. Sadiq told me that time will heal me, yes it does heal but for certain circumstances only. It cant overpower the force of love that excites my heart each time i talk to you.
I tried, it's hard.
If you are reading this, please do note that everything I said literally, is what Ive been feeling these few days.
I don't know what you've got that other girls lack, but certainly it's what that is preventing me to fall head over heels for them but instead for you.
Laid out on the porch, the young boy looked out into the horizon and sighed. The sunset, what little was left - even that reminded him of her. The young boy closed his eyes, hoping that would stop the tears. Desolated, he recalled the times spent together. She was all he could ever ask for - She was beautiful. She had the softest lips, the most beautiful eyes. He loved how her hair fell back onto her shoulders. He had longed to run his fingers through it. He yearned for her tender skin, it kept him warm.
Yet, as much as every detail rekindled his love for her, it clamped his heart painfully. The boy walked away from the dim imagery of her and buried his face into his hands. He couldn't begin to understand why she betrayed him. He knew he mattered to her as much as she to him. Still, could she have dismissed all of that when she disappeared? None of it made many sense to him. But for the first time, he was exhausted. The love they had was purely intense, so magical yet it's drained out all hope and faith he's ever had. The boy could never go on without her and yet, he has to go on. Having known that, the boy sat still for the longest time, wishing he had never fallen in love with the one person who has made him the happiest he's ever been; The same person who's made him the saddest he's ever been.
Yet, as much as every detail rekindled his love for her, it clamped his heart painfully. The boy walked away from the dim imagery of her and buried his face into his hands. He couldn't begin to understand why she betrayed him. He knew he mattered to her as much as she to him. Still, could she have dismissed all of that when she disappeared? None of it made many sense to him. But for the first time, he was exhausted. The love they had was purely intense, so magical yet it's drained out all hope and faith he's ever had. The boy could never go on without her and yet, he has to go on. Having known that, the boy sat still for the longest time, wishing he had never fallen in love with the one person who has made him the happiest he's ever been; The same person who's made him the saddest he's ever been.
16.12.2007 - 16.01.2009
Disappointments, I've always taken by my stride
Mistakes, I apologize without hesitation
Insults, I ignore without keeping inside
It's all too much, you're not the girl I know you are. I tried to accept for who you are and stand by you but despite my unassailable efforts, you pushed me away, push away my hand you once kissed and held against your cheek.
I tried to give you time but you wish to end it despite me confessing all my faults and changing to please you. You argued with me because I don't sit next to you and so on. Heck, I was with my friends. When you were, do i voice any disapproval? I waited for you for several hours each time in the library? Have you ever feel appreciated?
I tried to get this in your head, but you don't seem to understand, you think you're always right and i'm always wrong but me, i'm fair and square; if you are right means you are right, wrong means wrong. I'm nowhere near perfect but at least I do apologize when I'm wrong, did you?
It's all too late and I am very confident I made a sensible and good choice given the circumstances. I never wanted to leave you, but I will do all it takes to make you happy, hence, I let you go.
Shit, I'm crying like a fucking pussy, no one has moved me to tears this much because no one has meant to me as much as you do.
Good luck and all the best to you for the future challenges that are bound to lay on your path. Yes, you deserve better than what I have got in me. Huda, you are right, she deserves better.
Bye. :(
Disappointments, I've always taken by my stride
Mistakes, I apologize without hesitation
Insults, I ignore without keeping inside
It's all too much, you're not the girl I know you are. I tried to accept for who you are and stand by you but despite my unassailable efforts, you pushed me away, push away my hand you once kissed and held against your cheek.
I tried to give you time but you wish to end it despite me confessing all my faults and changing to please you. You argued with me because I don't sit next to you and so on. Heck, I was with my friends. When you were, do i voice any disapproval? I waited for you for several hours each time in the library? Have you ever feel appreciated?
I tried to get this in your head, but you don't seem to understand, you think you're always right and i'm always wrong but me, i'm fair and square; if you are right means you are right, wrong means wrong. I'm nowhere near perfect but at least I do apologize when I'm wrong, did you?
It's all too late and I am very confident I made a sensible and good choice given the circumstances. I never wanted to leave you, but I will do all it takes to make you happy, hence, I let you go.
Shit, I'm crying like a fucking pussy, no one has moved me to tears this much because no one has meant to me as much as you do.
Good luck and all the best to you for the future challenges that are bound to lay on your path. Yes, you deserve better than what I have got in me. Huda, you are right, she deserves better.
Bye. :(
Yeaps, Syahida is known to me as story rabbit. And i'm known to her as jogging monkey. WTH. I was bored so I appeal to Syahida to squeeze out a title for me to post. "When the lights go out" Hmm.. I am not sure the exact thing that she wants me to say about but I think I so - called get what she wants.
When the lights go out :
I watch tv
I cook something
I work out
I, sometimes watch something
I do something
I pray ( wow what a contradiction in watching and doing that 'something' )
I finish 2 books when I'm in the mood for fast paced reading
I talk to my sweetheart
I be a gay to Naqib, Fir and Bhai Gala so on depending on who my raging hormones yearn for. ( Yucks Fayyadz )
I be a nuisance to some people
I talk to you, urm you and of course you.
I close my eyes and pretend I own something like Ferrari? Lamborghini?
I sing, sing and sing, the songs that made me famous.
I play game, GTA? FM?
I dance
I write short stories
I eat and eat.
I will make countless trips to the kitchen, hoping, begging, wishing, yearning for something that can please my stomach.
I admire my thin body.
I stare in the mirror and yeah, the mirror doesnt rip into pieces, no.
I sat down, rekindling the past.
I listen to music, some love songs, some altenative songs, depending on what my ears's pussy wants.
Urm, thats about all and those are the things that I actually did or still doing now and no, i don't fake.
WAIT, I actually realised that I do more things at night than during daytime.
Story rabbit, here you go!
AND SWEETHEART!!!!!! HAPPY 13 MONTHS!
When the lights go out :
I watch tv
I cook something
I work out
I, sometimes watch something
I do something
I pray ( wow what a contradiction in watching and doing that 'something' )
I finish 2 books when I'm in the mood for fast paced reading
I talk to my sweetheart
I be a gay to Naqib, Fir and Bhai Gala so on depending on who my raging hormones yearn for. ( Yucks Fayyadz )
I be a nuisance to some people
I talk to you, urm you and of course you.
I close my eyes and pretend I own something like Ferrari? Lamborghini?
I sing, sing and sing, the songs that made me famous.
I play game, GTA? FM?
I dance
I write short stories
I eat and eat.
I will make countless trips to the kitchen, hoping, begging, wishing, yearning for something that can please my stomach.
I admire my thin body.
I stare in the mirror and yeah, the mirror doesnt rip into pieces, no.
I sat down, rekindling the past.
I listen to music, some love songs, some altenative songs, depending on what my ears's pussy wants.
Urm, thats about all and those are the things that I actually did or still doing now and no, i don't fake.
WAIT, I actually realised that I do more things at night than during daytime.
Story rabbit, here you go!
AND SWEETHEART!!!!!! HAPPY 13 MONTHS!
Qibsy expressed his disappointment and me too, the rest too must have felt that way. To be where we are languishing in 5th place with 2 games remaining doesn't reflect the star qualities and attributes that all of us have in abundance. Our team spirit and bonding in the club is absolutely magnificent. To be led by Izwan, to be honest with you all, he's the best captain I ever had in my life. For your information, I am part of countless floorball teams and soccer teams, never in my life have I been led by someone who's leadership qualities outshone everyone. I'm not saying he's the only leader in the team but there are many leaders out there too.
Rumour has it that certain top players want to ply their trade in one of the top divisions. I'm not angry or am i in any kind of position to be angry but I strongly appeal to my close friends to stick together. Our sch has only a miserable 1 club, it's the only premier club with the brand NYP, therefore, it's only right if we make famous this brand which has overseen our rise from being a normal trainer to a player that when strangers see, they will go 'wow'.
I always look forward to the weekends to play for my club, some of you may be surprised that it's my first club. I cant guarantee that it's the only club that I'm gonna play in because I don't know what the future holds for me but as long as the NYP Ravens exist, you will see my name in every team sheet.
Having said that, I can't wait for tomorrow's club game against Catholic High.
Rumour has it that certain top players want to ply their trade in one of the top divisions. I'm not angry or am i in any kind of position to be angry but I strongly appeal to my close friends to stick together. Our sch has only a miserable 1 club, it's the only premier club with the brand NYP, therefore, it's only right if we make famous this brand which has overseen our rise from being a normal trainer to a player that when strangers see, they will go 'wow'.
I always look forward to the weekends to play for my club, some of you may be surprised that it's my first club. I cant guarantee that it's the only club that I'm gonna play in because I don't know what the future holds for me but as long as the NYP Ravens exist, you will see my name in every team sheet.
Having said that, I can't wait for tomorrow's club game against Catholic High.
Have you ever wished for a perfect life?
Like, your dream life?
Unlimited money to indulge on anything that you wish for?
Spend quality time with people you care without worrying your parents screaming as tho' their hearts will burst out of their mouth at you?
To get a first class degree in language without sitting for it?
Then, after a busy day spent shopping for everything, you will want to chill in a lovely crib. A crib, 5 stories high, marble flooring, pinkish rosy white tiles, 14 chairs dining table with diamond - filled dining set, 20 foot plasma television with state - of - the - art sound blaster set.
And, if the movie mood kicks into you, you can kindly walk to your 1000 seating capacity cinema underground. If your competitive streak gets into your veins, then you can call up your friend over for a good old game of pool and when you feel the need to run, run, run your stress out, then you can do so in your own private indoor running track located right next to your house.
Then, then, then, when you thought that you had had enough of activities that can make you sweat then you can cool it off and satisfy yourself by laying down on your outdoor water-bed on the hill - top with gentle wind caressing your cheeks and cause a few strands of your hair to dance on your head, clearly enjoying themselves as much as you probably do.
Wow, what a life!
Like, your dream life?
Unlimited money to indulge on anything that you wish for?
Spend quality time with people you care without worrying your parents screaming as tho' their hearts will burst out of their mouth at you?
To get a first class degree in language without sitting for it?
Then, after a busy day spent shopping for everything, you will want to chill in a lovely crib. A crib, 5 stories high, marble flooring, pinkish rosy white tiles, 14 chairs dining table with diamond - filled dining set, 20 foot plasma television with state - of - the - art sound blaster set.
And, if the movie mood kicks into you, you can kindly walk to your 1000 seating capacity cinema underground. If your competitive streak gets into your veins, then you can call up your friend over for a good old game of pool and when you feel the need to run, run, run your stress out, then you can do so in your own private indoor running track located right next to your house.
Then, then, then, when you thought that you had had enough of activities that can make you sweat then you can cool it off and satisfy yourself by laying down on your outdoor water-bed on the hill - top with gentle wind caressing your cheeks and cause a few strands of your hair to dance on your head, clearly enjoying themselves as much as you probably do.
Wow, what a life!
today is such a bitch. my worst point in floorball. but chill, im cool with it. i promise u guys i will come back stronger.
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I hope you're reading this man, Mr Captain. You think you are the captain you can pick on people and carry other team mates balls as and when u wish isit? Fuck you. I have no fucking time to fucking entertain your nonsense, so do a few of my friends. The only reason why they wish to play it's because they want to contribute to team and not because of you and why i withdrew is because I can't stand a single fuck u said about me. I know you maybe the star in floorball but in attitude wise, you're the bottom of the team, that's for certain. You don't have the real 'star' quality in you to warrant respect from people.
There are many leaders in the team that I really do consider true leaders. I give you some, like the current captains of my club? Yeah people like that will be like by all, not just by a few neither by majority.
You can kiss my ass before considering yourself as the true great leader of the team.
I do not want to bring this thing up but you pick on my friend for nothing when he's sincerely asking you a bloody question. The way you treat some people in the team deserve rat's shit spread nicely and collectedly all over your face
There are many leaders in the team that I really do consider true leaders. I give you some, like the current captains of my club? Yeah people like that will be like by all, not just by a few neither by majority.
You can kiss my ass before considering yourself as the true great leader of the team.
I do not want to bring this thing up but you pick on my friend for nothing when he's sincerely asking you a bloody question. The way you treat some people in the team deserve rat's shit spread nicely and collectedly all over your face
I've been looking forward to don the school's colours with pride and conviction in this year's IVP Championships. No one, even me, can imagine me pulling out from the tournament. Well, i shall not reveal much about this so as not to create any disharmony especially IVP is only a couple of days left. Having thought about the effort i exerted, the sweat i excreted, it's such a wasteful thing to do. Seriously, everyone that is in my shoes will, yes will, back off.
The only person i shared the whole incident is my girl and also a guy in NYP, the name I shall not mention again because I don't want you guys to extort him for the reasons. Well, Darling advised me something and after giving a long thought, she is absolutely spot on as always.
Guys, Brothers, My Revered Team mates, whatever it is, I shall stand by you guys. Whenever I play for NYP, I put 100 percent effort minimum, if I can push myself further, I will. I tried to withstand it all, but it's all too much for my light shoulders to bear therefore, I intend and insist on releasing the burden.
Darling, I love you no matter what, so sad, it was'nt to be. I really hope for...
I want to eat at Popeyes! Okay random bitch.
The only person i shared the whole incident is my girl and also a guy in NYP, the name I shall not mention again because I don't want you guys to extort him for the reasons. Well, Darling advised me something and after giving a long thought, she is absolutely spot on as always.
Guys, Brothers, My Revered Team mates, whatever it is, I shall stand by you guys. Whenever I play for NYP, I put 100 percent effort minimum, if I can push myself further, I will. I tried to withstand it all, but it's all too much for my light shoulders to bear therefore, I intend and insist on releasing the burden.
Darling, I love you no matter what, so sad, it was'nt to be. I really hope for...
I want to eat at Popeyes! Okay random bitch.
Resolutions are something that your heart desires. I've heard it, I respect it. I will not cut across the path.
I am the unofficial ambassador for the Speak Good English campaign implemented by libraries nationwide. I am very disappointed with the way most Singaporeans speak English. Actually I get pissed off, to the Malays, Indians, Chinese who speak English by adding their essence of disgusting style to the beautiful language. (a big fuck you to you)
U don't have to speak like how people like Enid Blyton or Charles Dickens does, just simple yet perfect English will do.
I have been thinking about a particular incident which occurred not too long ago. I was talking to my friend in English and one of my friend commented in Malay that means why speak English? I mean what the fuck is wrong with me conversing in English with my Malay friends. It's the language I'm most comfortable with. Not saying I'm not fluent speaking Malay but English just rolls out of my tongue easier than other languages.
If that person happens to read this, well, even though I didn't respond to you then, it doesn't mean that I am not aware of it.
Gone are the days where Greek and Roman languages are the universal language, face it, English language is the dominant and ruling force throughout the 7 continents and I can't even imagine a day where other language will take over as the world's most common language.
I know you guys may lament about the big fuss I'm making about English. Call me a pussy or a dickhead but I don't care because I believe people in the right mind will agree to all the things I've said.
Spread the word : English is only English. You can't change/modify/alter it. Thank you.
U don't have to speak like how people like Enid Blyton or Charles Dickens does, just simple yet perfect English will do.
I have been thinking about a particular incident which occurred not too long ago. I was talking to my friend in English and one of my friend commented in Malay that means why speak English? I mean what the fuck is wrong with me conversing in English with my Malay friends. It's the language I'm most comfortable with. Not saying I'm not fluent speaking Malay but English just rolls out of my tongue easier than other languages.
If that person happens to read this, well, even though I didn't respond to you then, it doesn't mean that I am not aware of it.
Gone are the days where Greek and Roman languages are the universal language, face it, English language is the dominant and ruling force throughout the 7 continents and I can't even imagine a day where other language will take over as the world's most common language.
I know you guys may lament about the big fuss I'm making about English. Call me a pussy or a dickhead but I don't care because I believe people in the right mind will agree to all the things I've said.
Spread the word : English is only English. You can't change/modify/alter it. Thank you.
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